on a sunday afternoon
white light peaks into the window
as i scrub cheese off of a plate
peanut butter out of a bowl
rinse tea from a coffee cup
when the water gets backed up
i run the garbage disposal
and watch as it all fades away
into whatever is on the other side
the kitchen is dim and quiet
my feet bare and sticky on the floor
i am at peace
and then bam
a flash overcomes me
and my third eye opens
suns and moons spiraling within it
i see the everything
and the everything sees me
my arms become giant wings
my heart grows into a great garden of trees
my feet lift from the sticky ground
my eyes roll back and my pruned finger tips
touch the clouds touch the ribcage of god
i am one with the nothing
and the nothing is one with me
my bloods rages with true compassion
my breaths grow deep
i breathe in the green grass of Kyoto
i breathe out the smokestacks of America
i am a great beacon of all that ever was
and all that ever will be
and then i realize we are out of dishwasher detergent
and i should run by the store to get some



“Hell is not punishment. It’s training.”
-Shunryu Suzuki

throw me into the frozen ocean
toss me into the lion’s den
give me 1000 shocking needles
piercing through my shallow skin
for through this i will remain

waterboard me for hours on end
as i swim through oceans of freedom
give me small doses of death
crush me beneath the foot of the elephant

paint me in acid
douse me in flame
love me with heartbreak
please me with pain

i am motionless
i am a snowflake
falling in denver
i am the silence
between the notes
and you cannot kill
those who refuse to die